History of Society

I imagined a truly romantic and dramatic death for myself. A sacrfice for love, or for a strong belief. But now it seems that Chapter 8 from the social history book is going to kill me... It will be a slow and painful process. Not a sudden, fast and theatrical act. Heartbreaking, even to think about it.

Farewell to all.

:)

Oh, 12th of january, the date of that huge enormous incredibly big exam.
So far and so close.

What I managed to learn so far, it's how to do a nice guglhupf, which is quite a complicated but very tasty cake. Maybe if I bring some to the exam committe, it will improve my situtation....

Exam period...

Such a weird time of the year. You have to close yourself up, and try hard to focus mainly -or preferably only - on one thing, your studies. No place for worries about past and future, just concentrate on the subject, which is of course almost impossible. It would be so much easier, to switch off those parts of your brain you don't need.  Is there any way to do it? Tell me, please. 

Every time, after a gap semester especially, I have to look for my strategy again, and this year it seems even more complicated, than usually. Even though I have only 4 exams, which is a really friendly number, and the end is getting closer and closer...

And now I stop whining, and go back to read some more about the history of society! Oh gosh, how much I hate this subject...

New Year New Resolutions

Another new beginning

Oh well, I cleared all the two previous very precious and meaningful posts, but suddenly decided not to delete the whole blog, but give it another try. Again. :)

It actually is a good thing to write about feelings and impressions, and it's even more interesting if you write it on a place where some other people can actually read it too. Funnier than in a locked up diary for sure.

I had a really screwed up year, or not a whole year, but the second part of it. So I pretty much hope for a better one, just out of probability. Hmm, I'm trying to work for it too, I promise, as far as it's possible. Though it's not very easy in the middle of the exam period. I'm not in shape for studying again, not yet. I know I should be trying, instead of sabotaging the preparation, with such blog-writing...

Nevertheless, I am happy and calm, much more calmer than a couple of months or even weeks ago. I'm slowly finding my way back from the state of broken heart and soul. It's never really easy I guess, but I do have an optimistic cheerful personality, even if it gets hidden from time to time. I'm trying to catch the flow of the tao, and be a happy and contented pumpkin. :)

I realized, what really helps is walking on the streets of Budapest at dawn. Especially on the river-bank, it's a great place for revelations. (Honestly, it might be because of the heavy partying before dawn.... :D) You go out with your friends, talk, dance, have fun, talk about the meaning of life, and then you just realized your hometown is one of the most beautiful and special cities of Europe. Not bad, huh? :)

My current mission is to be less naive and more realistic, but I still save my idealism and hopefully the sunny view on life. No real resolution for new year this time, I just keep going! ;)

But before I go on, I post here my new early morning riverbank favourite: